|a shot from a fall party but it portrays how I felt last night|
Now you'd think new day, new start the next morning right? Nope, not for this pity party. I was half an hour late for work because I got Cate dressed and worried over if we'd make it back in time for her field trip today. I brought her to the office with me, got started on some time sensitive work and thought I finally was back in control. Until the reminder popped up on my calender - "Lucy - ENT appointment". I really almost gave up right then, the thread I was hanging by started to seriously unravel. So I worked for an hour, took Cate to school, picked up Lucy, took her to the ENT appointment which turned out to be her last one - her ears are totally clear 8 months after her tubes fell out so she has been released for the ENT. Things are looking up now right? Not quite, as I go to drop Lucy off at school I notice I don't have her bag. Not good - it has her lunch in it so she can't be without it. So after dropping her off I had to go back home to get the bag, then back to school to dropping it off before going back to work. I really thought that thread was about to break. I actually sat in my car with my head on the steering wheel waiting for the dam of threatening tears to explode as it snapped. But as the car blocking me in the driveway moved so did I and and you know what I saw? Lucy's class was on the playground and she was jumping off a balance beam laughing. She looks so pure and was having so much fun that my thread started to repair itself. I even got lucky because she didn't see me. Then as I'm waiting at a stop light I inched up to see if I could see the buses coming to the theater around the corner for Cate's field trip not really expecting it to be there. But I was blessed with a glance at my beautiful girl in her adorable green polo dress, flowered knee socks, Mary Janes and a bright white bow getting off the bus and smiling up at her para-pro so excited about her field trip. That one glance repaired the rest of my thread and soothed my soul. I got back to work with a much better attitude - which was a good thing because I'm not sure how long it will be before I live down bring the wrong kid for an appointment. I wish I had a picture of Cate's adorable new outfit but I wasn't that lucky today.
I really hope I can hang on to those images all day, so I'm sure by the time you read this all will be well and tomorrow will be a post full of happy fall pictures like I had intended for today. Here is to the smiles that make our days better - hope you get to see one today too! (And to the mini frosty I'm about to eat for lunch with my unhealthy but so yummy spicy chicken sandwhich because just food and chocolate are required on a day like today.)